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From time to time, for many years, some of 
these verses ha've appeared in nenxjspapers and 
periodicals. They are here collected at the re- 
quest of friends. 

E. s, H. 



TO E. P. H. 

The language of the human heart, 
Nor tongue nor pen may tell ; 

But other eyes look into ours, 
And understand us well. 

No gift is worthy, my Beloved, 

Of what thou art to me; 
But these frail children of my love, 

I would bestow on thee. 

The years will come, the years will go, 

As poets oft have sung; 
But Love is Life, and Life is Love, 

And Love, is ever young ! 



CONTENTS 



Brown Leaves . 




PAGE 

3 


To THE Daisies . 


. 


5 


Absence 


. 


7 


To Florence 


. 


9 


Nature's Influence 


. 


II 


A Valentine 


. 


13 


A Spring Reverie 


. 


15 


To Her Dolly . 


. 


19 


My Prayer 


. 


21 


Anniversary Ode 




23 


Our Heroes 


. 


25 


A Call to Spring 


. 


27 


Upper Air . 


. 


29 


Dreams 


. 


31 


The Old Year and th 


e New 


33 


Columbus . 


. 


35 


Lost Days . 




37 


Mother's Prayer 


. 


39 


Expectation 


. 


41 


The Silence of the R 


dsebud 


43 


Seed-Time and Harve 


ST 


45 


To A Blue-Fringed G 


entian 


47 


A Fragment 


. 


49 


My Christmas Wish 




51 


To A Rosebud . 




53 


Trees 


. 


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BROWN LEAVES 

From the pipes of old Winter, has come a shrill blast, 

And upon the gray earth a pure mantle is cast. 

'Tis a garment of snow-flakes come down from the 

skies 
And beneath it, in silence, the patient earth lies. 

The moaning and rustling of dead leaves is past — 

The comforter came, they are sheltered at last. 

O, brown leaves of autumn! 'Tis a wise hand that 

leads. 
And he sends what is best, who best knoweth our 

needs. 
He gives and he takes, and in taking he gives : 
From life cometh death, and in dying we live. 
From mists of the river, the brooklet and sea 
This beautiful shroud has been woven, and ye 
Of its coming wist not, for from out the still air 
It as silently fell as an answer to prayer. 
O, could ye but creep from your coverlet white 
And visit your home, a most wonderful sight 
Would gladden your hearts, for the sun met the snow, 
And the frost followed on with his cold breath, and lo ! 
Your home is a palace of crystal more bright 
Than Aladdin beheld with his magical light. 



Ye glow and ye fade — but as wondrous to me 

Is the leaf on the ground as the leaf on the tree; 

For links in time's chain clasp eternity fast 

And the chain becomes endless. Ever the past 

Pays its debt to the future, leaf-life, or man's, 

So perfect the system that surely no hands 

But of Infinite wisdom and love could be 

The author of such an unerring decree. 

Who knoweth the end? Little leaflets, not we! 

Enough for ourselves, as we hang on life's tree, 

To gather the sunshine and freely bestow 

Our shade to the weary and faint ones below. 

And when we grow brown, as, surely we must, 

The end will be glorious can we but trust 

That the Infinite love, which careth for all, 

Forgets not the little brown leaves when they fall. 



TO THE DAISIES 

O Daisies, with your golden hearts 

And petals white as snow, 
Ye are, indeed, fond Summer's eyes 

O speak ! for I would know 
The secrets of this month of June 

Of all months of the year. 
And not one June of all my life 

Was ever half so dear. 

The secrets of this month of June 

With your soft eyes declare : 
What is it makes the roses bloom. 

And beauty everywhere? 
Is it the longing in the seed 

That speaketh in the flower; 
And is this longing satisfied 

To breathe for one short hour. 

And vanish ? Nay : the hidden power, 

In seed-life unto me 
Seems deathless, as the human-soul, 

Was, and will always be — 
And what though on the silent air, 

The perfume dies away 
Of the June roses, and they fade — 

Behold ! shall any say. 
However wise, that this is loss : 

Alas ! shall any deign 
Deny, that Nature's wondrous laws 

May not restore again? 
The waves roll in upon the shore, 

Recede, and come again 



And thirsty clouds drink in the floods, 

To give them back, in rain. 
O Daisies, when bright June is past, 

And all your beauty fled ; 
If in my memory ye but live, 

I dare not call ye dead, 
For ye have led me to the fount 

From whence all beauty springs. 
Your silence filled my soul with awe, 

And gave my spirit wings. 
The self-same tint in morning's glow 

And in the crimson flush 
Of the June roses, I behold 

In timid maidens' blush. 
O Daisies, listen unto me. 

My secret I impart — 
Love's sweetest flowers are all ablow; 

'Tis June-time in my heart ! 

Go tell my secret to some bird, 

The bob-o-link were best — 
Tell him to ask his patient wife 

To sit upon the nest; 
And him unto my lover go, 

And, as my minstrel sent, 
Ask him to sing that song he sang 

When he a-wooing went. 

Thou think'st he might not find him? 

It might be well to say. 
My love, like light, will go before 

To 'luminate the way. 



ABSENCE 

Thou art away and I am here, 

The one that's left is lonesome, dear. 

I long to look into your face. 

I long to-night for your embrace. 

Like hopeless grief, the wind and rain 
Beats at my darkened window pane. 

There'll come a time, my love, I know. 
When one of us must surely go. 

Beyond the call of voice or tear — 
Which shall it be? I question, dear. 

O, coward heart, find hope and rest — 
Whatever comes to thee is best! 



TO FLORENCE 

(On Her Tenth Birthday.) 

I am very sad and lonely, dear, 

Do you care for what I say? 
I once had a beautiful baby — 

But now she has gone away. 

To-day I went up to the garret, 

And there in a chest I found 
Little shirts, little shoes and stockings 

And a dainty little gown. 

Scarcely large enough for your dolly 
Are the things she used to wear, — 

Do you know where has gone my baby, 
My baby — with soft, brown hair? 

She was such a beautiful baby — 

I had thought to keep her so, 
But she slipped away with each passing day 

And I did not see her go. 



Then I had a child, as lovely 

As my babe had seemed to me; 

But she is gone and I gaze through tears 
But her face I may not see. 

I remember her childish prattle, 

The wonderful things she'd say. 

Her winsome smile and her merry laugh- 
Now, why did she go away? 



Her hair was soft as the thistle's down, 
But the sunshine lingered there 

And wreathed such glory about her brow 
As I never have seen elsewhere. 

In the garret we put her high-chair, 
And saved her rattle and ball, 

But she never came back to claim them 
And all in vain was my call. 



"I will not go and leave you 
As the others went away." 

Yes, I hear what you are saying, dear, 
That you will be sure to stay. 



It must be that I was dreaming 
Of days that have passed away — 

What is it, my own little daughter, 
You are ten years old, to-day? 

Yes, nestle up closer, my darling, 
You have banished all my care, — 

For you are my beautiful baby 

And my child with the sunlit hair. 

As I look in your soft, brown eyes, dear, 

My baby's face I see. 
And I know not what to call you, now 

Save my blessed trinity. 



NATURE'S INFLUENCE 

O, is there aught in this wide world more strange. 

Or aught more wonderful in spheres unknown, 

Than nature's influence on human life? 

We go into the open field or wood, 

And she is there, and we are thrilled, and feel 

An ecstacy which words cannot define — 

A touch too delicate for human speech. 

The robin's song comes floating on the air, 
And all his soul is in it — it is more 
To me than grandest opera, for by it 
Is ushered in the sweet arbutus bloom 
And tulips gay and yellow daffodils. 
I stray amid a field of daisy bloom — 
That all-pervading Presence seems most nigh, 
The atmosphere they breathe is full of cheer. 
Who that has wandered with them, has not felt 
His burdens lightened and his sorrows healed? 
I know not why, but common flowers declare 
Truth unto me when hot-house-cultured fail, 
And yet, however reared, no bud could ope 
But felt the Awakener's touch of magic. 



This do they teach. The same warm rays of sun 

Fall on the nettle-plant, as fall upon 

The sweet briar-rose, and the rain-laden cloud 

Passes not by the meanest weed that grows. 

And do not wayside flowers invite alike 

The rich and humble? To possess is more 

Than ownership. Who takes from harvest-field 

Food for the inner life may richer be 

Than he who fills his granary to the brim. 

Jesus, who spake strong words for human needs 

But spake what every soul has felt and known — 

That life and body are of greater worth, 

Than food and raiment. 

Red'ning in the Spring 
Each maple tree reveals that wondrous care 
Which never slumbers. Throbbed our human hearts 
In harmony with Nature's, should we feel 
It less, when dead leaves rustle 'neath our feet. 
And winds of Autumn sing funereal dirge? 

Why do men question of a future life? 

The tiniest grass blades, springing from the sod, 

Are bridges, whereupon with trusting feet 

I can in safety cross the stream of doubt — 

Wing of bird and cloud which floats above me. 

Pebble and sea shell which the tide brings in. 

Op'ning bud and tinted leaf of autumn, 

Ye all are messengers unto my soul. 

For ye are typical, and the revealers 

Of the All-Beautiful, whom I adore! 



A VALETINE 

(To E. P. H.) 

A Valentine — Now if I might 

But somehow tempt her to alight — 

I mean my Muse — I'd try to say 

Some word to cheer thy heart, to-day. 

I know the meaning they attach 

To Valentines: but then I'll scratch 

That off, and write, as to a friend — 

'Tis fair, if so we comprehend. 

How strange, that certain days and hours, 

That certain trees and certain flowers. 

Alone possess, as 'twere, a key 

To certain rooms in memory. 

When but a child, they used to say 
That birds, like lovers, went away 
In search of mates : and even now 
I dimly can remember how 
Their words I doubted, till one day 
Our purple pigeon flew away, 
Returned at night, and by his side 
Fluttered his little snow-white bride. 
And ne'er this day comes 'round to me 
But flutters in my memory 
The purple and the snow-white dove 
Cooing their tender notes of love. 



Some word to cheer thee, did I say? 

Words — what are words? As helpless they 

As blinded eyes to lead the feet 

O'er tangled pathways, did they meet 

Not some felt need, or if they be 

Not warm with loving S3^mpathy. 

If magic were my art, and I 

Could banish from thine inner sky 

All clouds of sorrow and of pain, 

I would not do it. Following rain 

Is brighter " sky ; at sorrow's fire 

Our joys are tempered. Mounting higher 

Than human wish is human need, 

And wrapped beneath the husks of creed 

Is what we think, and feel, and know, 

Of the dee p thingo of God : 

Of the deep things of God. And so 

My best and only wish shall be 

That thou mayst solve life's mystery. 



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A SPRING REVERIE 

Winter has at last unlocked the portals of his icy 
castle and ushered into our presence the very queen 
of all the seasons. Let us fling open the doorways 
of our hearts and give a generous welcome. How 
silently she moves among us, and yet our finer ear 
may hear her in the springing grass and opening 
blossoms. We feel her magic touch in everything 
about us. She whispers, and the slumbering earth 
awakes to new life and beauty. Would we might sing 
her praises with hearts as full as the happy, joyous 
birds. 

I wonder, if we would, we could not make our daily 
lives fuller of praises and thanksgiving-songs ; clothe 
wearying, unlovely care, with beauty? And I wonder, 
too, if we are not ourselves to blame, if in the pleasant 
walks of life we gather not enough of sunshine up to 
last through cloudy weather? And yet, we must dream 
our own dreams and live our own lives. 

The hearts of little children drink in the spring sun- 
shine as freely, even, as the birds and flowers. And 
are not their voices sweeter than the song of birds and 
their lives dearer than all the blossoms? 

A maiden sits and dreams, and in her fancy she 
weaves the golden meshes of a nest that will one day 
be her own, and if her morning and evening carol 
shall be sweeter than the bird's it is not strange, for 
is not her nest dearer and her love deeper? 

In the spring sunshine a mother muses, and her 
thoughts have flown backward. She sits 'mid blasted 
buds and voiceless birds, in a springtime of long ago; 
and though her whole pathway is strewn with flowers, 

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it is not so much to her as to know that on those 
little graves the violets are come again. She tends 
them witn a loving care, for they speak precious prom- 
ises unto her soul. 

The aged couple number over and over again the 
many springtimes their lives have known in light and 
shadow. They drink not in the full sunshine of these 
delicious days, for their nest and nestlings are all 
gone, and they are waiting for a more glorious spring- 
time yet to come — waiting for eternal sunshine and 
perpetual blossoms. 

Upon the faces of men of great crime, through all 
the scars of sin, may be found traces of happy days of 
innocence and pleasure. Doubtless, as the springtime 
sun streams faintly into the cell of many a criminal, 
memory is quickened to life by its soft rays, and 
flowers of tenderness which have long slumbered bloom 
again, in the garden of his heart. Perhaps he may re- 
member days all sunshine, days of loving — when a dear 
face and the light of glad eyes transfigured everything 
into a world of glory. But temptation, like sorrow, 
overtakes us when we are least prepared, and on the 
stream of life we either drift with its current, or 
with strength of will and determined purpose, pull our 
fragile bark against it. 

None need so much human sympathy and divine love 
and favor as the poor in spirit. The poor in purse 
may vie in happiness with the rich; but to a life from 
which the light of hope has all gone out, the journey 
to the end is drear and desolate. Thus, it is we dream 
our own dreams and live our own lives, however much 
we may live for others. 

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For myself — 
To feel that the springtime is coming, 

That the wildwood is all full of song; 
That the leaves, and the grasses and blossoms, 

In beauty are creeping along, 

Thrills my soul with a deep song of gladness; 

And the depths of my being are stirred. 
Till I feel that the Master is tuning 

My voice to the voice of the bird. 

And what harmony thrills all creation, 
From the brooklet's musical flow 

To the wonderful tide of the ocean, 
With its ceaseless murmur of woe. 

Yet, He who made earth, sky and all things, 
Reckons man of Himself, a part — 

And what to nature is budding and bloom, 
Symbols love in the human heart. 

And I look at the world as I see it. 
With its mingled sorrow and strife, 

And my lips cry out the thought of my heart. 
What a wonderful thing is life ! 

With eyes to behold the glory of God 

In the stars or the blossoms of Spring, 

And hearts feel a love, that lips may not tell, 
Of a glorified Presence, within. 



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TO HER DOLLY 

Come here, poor little Dolly, 

And sit upon my knee, 
I will smooth your tangled tresses. 

For I feel in sympathy. 

You say your own little mamma 

Has gone away, and so 
You must be very lonely, 

For you always used to go. 

I can tell you a secret, Doll)^ 

I am sorry it is true, 
But since your mamma has grown so tall 

She cannot play with you.' 

Yet she'll never forget you, Dolly, 

She told me so to-day, 
And said that you, and all your things. 

She was going to put away. 

And often, very often, 

She would come and look at you, 
Would take you up, and smooth your hair 

And I'm sure that this is true. 

For the mother heart never forgets us 
Whatever you hear dolls say. 

It always loves and forgives us 
E'en when we go astray. 

Perhaps, dear little Dolly, 

In the days that are to be, 
Other little pink hands will dress you, 

And fondle you tenderly. 

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It may be her own little daughter 

Will fold you to her breast, 
And softly whisper, "I love you, dear, 

I love you the very best." 

'Twere pleasant to dream of Dolly 
As you lie in the dark up there, 

Though it n'er come true, 'Twere better to hope. 
For it saves us from despair. 



MY PRAYER 

How shall I pray to Thee, my God, 
Out on the troubled sea ; 

Where billows rage and tempest roars- 
How shall I pray to Thee? 

How shall I pray to Thee, my God; 

No beacon-light I see; 
And I am far, so far, from home — 

How shall I pray to Thee? 



My life, nor wind, nor wave, can harm 
Wherever I may be ; 
For here, or there, I am Thy child, 
Through all eternity. 

Still, I must pray to Thee, my God, 
Whate'er Thy plan may be ; 

Till thought of Thee shall calm for me 
The raging of the sea ! 



ANNIVERSARY ODE 

Thoughts Suggested by the Anniversary of the Death 
of Longfellow. 

A year ago to-day and the "Old Bells 
Of Boston" told to waiting, anxious hearts, 
That all was over. Hushed was human speech — 
The busy town forgot its need of toil, 
And rich and poor donned holiday attire 
And wept together. He did sing for all, 
And all did weep for him. E'en children's tears, 
Fell for him, for they loved him and his song. 
O, noble King of Song ! thy reign ends not 
With death. 

Thy kingdom is the human heart; 
And just so long as sympathy can soothe. 
Or words of hope encourage struggling souls. 
So long thy kingdom will abide with men. 
And as the clouds shed dewdrops on the flowers, 
Or violets breathe their fragrance on the air. 
E'en so thy poems, on our common lives, 
Shed sweet refreshment, and we love thy name. 
Surely "There is no death !" Such souls as thine 
Make all life seem immortal. The sunshine, 
From thy verse, dispels the clouds o£ doubt 
With an effulgent glory. Hid with God 
Is all the future; yet enough is shown 
To stimulate our trust for all the rest. 
And, as the raindrop, tracing back its source, 
Finds it in mist of brook or ocean's spray. 
So, from the depth of the Eternal Love, 

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Springs individual being. Passing time 

Is but as links in the unending chain, 

Which binds the whole together. Overhead, 

Some stars shine brighter than the rest, yet each 

Adds glory to the whole; beneath our feet 

The spring flowers bloom again, the breath of some 

Comes laden with a fragrance, which delights, 

Some void of beauty, or of sweet perfume. 

Yet in God's fields no mean weed blooms in vain. 

From filthiest pool as pure a drop of rain 
/Vftay be distilled, as from the crystal river. 
And must we not believe that darkened lives 
Will, somehow, in God's time, be glorified? 



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OUR HEROES 

(Written for, and sung at G. A. R. Memorial Cele- 
bration.) 
What fitter tribute could we bring, 

Our Father and our God, 
Than spring-time flowers with fragrance sweet, 
To deck our heroes' sod ! 

With magic word each open'ng flower 

Proclaims, that all must die. 
And dew drops glisten in each bud, 

Like tear drops in the eye. 

O, noble patriots ! naught of ours, 

Is meet for you, our braves, 
But rarest gifts of God we bring, 

And cast them on your graves. 

And He who clothes the tender grass, 

And decks the lily fair ; 
Will twine for you immortal flowers, 

With His abiding care. 



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A CALL TO SPRING 

Where art thou, tardy Spring? 
E'en while my song I sing 

Thou shouldst be with us. 

O, couldst thou only see 
What welcome waiteth thee, 
In field and forest. 

Art held by winter fast. 
And hast not power to cast 

Oflf his rude shackles? 

Too long has been his reign, 
Summon thy fairy train, 

Charge him to loose thee. 

Come to thy woodland bower. 
Green grass and op'ning flower 

Will spring to greet thee. 

Red-vested troubadour 
Hath left a sunny shore, 

That he may cheer thee. 

Blue-coated minstrelsy 
Waiteth impatiently 

For thy glad coming. 

Sweet are the songs they sing, 
As on impatient wing 

Gaily they flutter. 

Sweet — that a lover's notes 
May burst from feathered throats. 
Is there a doubter? 

Did ever regal ear, 
In ancient ages hear 

Music diviner? 
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Unto each human life 

With all its joy and strife, 

Come, with renewing. 

Breathe o'er each new-made grave, 
Till the green grasses wave, 
Like victory's banner. 

Come with thy healing balm, 
To the sick chamber — calm 

All who are restless. 

Breathe o'er each buried hope 
Till some bright flower shall ope 
With its peace message. 

Unto each gladsome heart 
Come, and thy store impart 
Of joy and beauty. 

Lovers are walking near 
Hast thou no wish to hear 

What they are saying? 

If magic be thine art. 
Unto such lives impart 

Strength to be faithful. 

Plead with the tempted heart. 
That as the green blades start 

From the dry grasses, 

So from sin's death and gloom 
New life may rise and bloom. 
And that forever, 

Nobler than warrior's claim, 
Is the undying fame 

Of souls victorious. 



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UPPER AIR 

(To E. P. H.) 

The chariot of the dawn rolls in 
And, far above all care, 

As freely as the gladsome lark 
My thought finds upper air. 

My thought finds upper air with thee 
O fear thou not, I pray, 

That such rare visions of the soul 
Unfit us for the way. 

Our feet must journey. 'Tis not so: 
For look thou — as we soar 

Is there not glory in the vale 
We never saw before? 

Yet was there glory in the vale 

And you and I were there — 
The same blue sky was over head, 

The same fond, brooding care 
Was over us : yet we were blind 

Till Love, like him of old. 
Laid on our eyes his healing hand, 

And lo, we now behold 
Life as it is. Yet more and more, 

As time shall roll away, 
I trow new glories will unfold, 

We dream not of to-day. 
My thought finds upper air, my love. 

And thou art with me there — 
The glory of the mountain heights 

We'll carry everywhere. 
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DREAMS 

Like beams of light to darkness, 

Is fancy, to the real; 
Lifting the down-cast spirit 

Unto its high ideal. 

Dreamers are all about us, 
On mountain or by sea, 

And had we no such visions, 

Less bright this world would be. 

The aged man is dreaming 
Of merry boyhood days ; 

Of favorite haunts, and schoolmates, 
And of their wonted plays. 

His life was then all sunshine, 
He roamed about at will; 

And years passed on as smoothly. 
As glides a laughing rill. 

But time has brought her burdens 
Of mingled pain and care; 

They've bent his manly figure, 
And silvered o'er his hair. 

Stately is now his bearing, 
He breathes a freer air; 

Then call him not from dreamland, 
For he is happy there. 

He now beholds the Heavenly, 
The dear ones gone before; 

No more are they divided, 
But with him, as of yore. 

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O, may such glorious vision* 

Oft to his spirit come; 
For, surely, they are gateways 

Unto that "Heavenly Home." 

The future to the youthful 

Diffuses brightest beams ; 
All wants and wishes granted, 

In golden future dreams. 

O, many fairy castles 

The youthful fancy rears ! 

But when the air dissolves them, 
Oft come the bitter tears. 

Still, chide them not for building, 
Burdens will lighter seem; 

And life, with all its shadows, 
Be brighter for the dream. 

Of what the infant dreameth, 
The wisest ne'er may know ; 

Yet, they must be in dreamland, 

When the dimples come and go. 

Over a faded blossom, 

Or shining curl, we dream. 

Till absent forms, through memory, 
E'en almost present seem. 

Yes, dreams are fraught with blessings, 

In love and mercy given ; 
And oft are golden stairways, 

Which draw us nearer heaven. 



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THE OLD YEAR AND THE NEW 

As at sea the eager voyager 

Thoughtfully from shore to shore, 
Waves farewell to scenes behind him, 

Welcomes scenes that rise before ; 
So I stand upon Time's ocean. 

And, as from my outer view 
Fades the old year's face in glory, 

Dawns the new in roseate hue. 

Dear old year, forever loyal. 

Listen to my thought of thee, 
All thou hast been, all thou now art 

Wilt thou be in memory. 
Summing up my gain and losses, 

Do I find my gain is more, 
Wider vision, richer friendships 

Have been added to my storCc 

Some, who walked with me, have vanished; 

Yet at memory's holy shrine 
Do we meet in sweet communion ; 

Theirs am I, and they are mine. 
For their influence on my journey 

Life is sweeter, lighter care. 
As the violet's bloom is brighter 

When the dewdrop sparkles there. 



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Dear Old Year — Lo ! thou art vanished, 
And here, standing in thy place, 
Is the New Year, full of promise. 
With the self-same care-free face 
Thou did'st wear, when first I knew thee. 
Welcome New Year ! Hear my vow : 
I will trust in all thy future. 

And will do thy bidding, now. 

As ye enter with the new year, 

Young or old, be brave at heart — 

Life hath need of faithful service. 
And each soul must bear its part; 

Sweeter than a nation's praises 
For high deeds of valor done 

Is the simple joy of duty, 

Is the peace from victory won. 



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COLUMBUS 

A Fragment 

Brave Columbus ! Did the Builder 
Show to you his wondrous plan, 

And inspire in you the courage 
To reveal it unto man? 

History shows no braver hero, 
Living, or beneath the sod — 
Shows no greater self-denial, 
Shows no deeper faith in God. 



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LOST DAYS 

We never can recall a day ; 
When it is past, it rolls away 

Into the lap of time. 

We might as well attempt to sow 
Our seed amid the falling snow, 

And hope for fruitage rare, 

As, life's bright spring of action o'er, 
Amid the present's din and roar 

Strive to reclaim the past. 

Though we should call, with sobs of pain, 
For the old year to come again, 

In vain would be our cry. 

Full many a fault we would correct. 
And many a scrawl we would reject, 
Were we to write anew. 

But, while we wish the year's return. 
While for the past our spirits yearn, 
A cheerful voice exclaims : 

"He who would reach sublimest height 
Must toil by day, and pray by night. 

And struggle with the tide — 

Now is the time to carve your fate ! 
Time never lags, though man be late — 
Lost days will ne'er return." 



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MOTHER'S PRAYER 

While my darling child is sleeping 

In her little bed, 
Mother's earnest prayer is heaping 

Blessings on her head. 

First she prays that God will teach her, 

How to worthy be 
Of so sweet a child to love her; 

Then, to clearly see, 

Duties of her noble calling — 

That, as days go by, 
She may help that soul develop 

All that's pure and high. 

'Make my little darling happy," 

Fondly mother prays; 
Happy as the birds and blossoms 

Through the summer days. 

May God keep her sweet and loving, 

Strong to battle sin. 
And, as now she trust in mother, 

May she trust in Him! 



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EXPECTATION 

How slowly you creep on — tick faster, clock! 
One that I love is nigh; when he is come 
You may cease ticking — little will I care 
For measurement of time! Then I'll not peer 
Into your face and question, "what's the hour?" 
If you withhold the telling, less my blame, 
For in that world of love, where soul meets soul, 
Time is not measured by the pendulum's swing, 
But by quick pulse-beats. One that I love is nigh; 
What mean those words? Upon the silent air 
They fall, and strike upon my listening ear 
In echoing tones. "One that I love is nigh!" 
How strange that world of love, and yet, how fair; 
To once have lived there is to catch a glint 
Of the Eternal Brightness. 

Naught can separate 
Two souls that love. If I could fetters forge 
To bind his heart to mine, by such slight threads 
As spiders spin, I would not do it. Love 
Is loftiest in his flight when free of wing. 

O, is not love, 
In its eternal might, the power that binds 
All worlds together? 



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THE SILENCE OF THE ROSEBUD 

O lovely rosebud, thou art more to me 

Than what men call thee ; for a mystery 

As fathomless as ocean in thy breast 

Is folded with each petal, I, in quest 

Of knowledge, do most reverently 

Approach thy presence-chamber. Thou shalt be 

My teacher: I am weary grown of books 

And speech of men. Lo ! something in thy looks 

Inspires new courage. O reveal to me 

The secret of thy being! I may see 

Thy beauty, scent thy sweetness ; yet thou art 

E'en more than these, for thou dost play a part 

In life's grand mystr'y. O is't given thee. 

The power to solve, what is denied to me? 

Did'st see, or only feel, that Hand of might 

That touched thee at the Spring-dawn, or was light 

Denied thee then? Rare gift of light — to me, 

Sublimest type of immortality. 

At thy first flush of crimson I was nigh 
To watch thy coming — what no human eye 
Might hope to witness. And lo, silently. 
As stars find birth thou didst appear to me 
In form perfection, in thy charm of dress 
Passing all wonder in thy loveliness. 
Still thou art silent to my listening ear, 
But deep within my consciousness, I hear 
"Lo ! beauty, love and truth, are one with Him 
Who beams in radiance, hides in shadows dim." 
What though thy birthplace be the humble sod, 
Thy life and mine are, surely, one with God ! 

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SEED-TIME AND HARVEST 

Shine out, Sun, in all your splendor, 
On this dreary Autumn day — 
With your warm lips, kiss the cold earth- 
One I love is on the way 
To my waiting arms — O kiss it 
Till the very air shall be 
Tempered to the breath of Heaven. 
I would have my loved one see. 
That the heart of all things pulseth, 
As in perfect unison, 
Just as we have felt our hearts beat 
When the twain seemed heart of one. 
Night will drop her sable mantle. 
E'er my loved-one comes, I knov\^' 
Send out little stars to greet him, 
'Fuse them with a wond'rous glow. 
One is coming, O my Father, 
In the love of whom I see 
Thee, the source of all true loving, 
And' through whom I come to Thee — 
Come to Thee with deep thanksgiving, 
For Thy more than wond'rous care; 
O'er the precious seed we planted 
In the genial springtime fair — 
"Many seeds fall short of issue." 
Yes, my Father, this I know; 
But we've somehow felt and trusted, 
With our seed, it were not so. 
We are longing for the fruitage, 
Hopefully, we trust and pray. 
Pray with deepest sense of hunger; 

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Father, turn us not away ! 
"Can'st not trust a little longer?" 
Yes, my Father, long and late — 
Till the snow falls on the green-sward 
We can trust, and we can wait. 



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TO A BLUE-FRINGED GENTIAN 

O, beautiful blue- fringed gentian bloom, 
Woulds't know why I care for you? 
You were plucked for me by a friendly hand 
From the hillside where you grew. 

How could you come up from the brown earth 

And be such a gorgeous thing? 
Did mother nature color your gown, 

When she tinted the blue bird's wing? 

Or did the rain drops into your buds, 
Bring down the blue of the sky? 

Yea, He who painted the rain-bow's stripes, 
E'en the waysides, beautify. 

A dearer spot is your woodland home, 
Where the pine trees lull to rest ; 

Where the sweet Spring-blossoms come again, 
And the song-birds love to nest. 

To drop your seed, in the soft brown earth 
With your kindred little flower. 

Was that your dream ere you were plucked 
To wither in an hour? 

"Glad am I to be the messenger 

Of tender thoughts," you say, 
"And to cheer the sick and sorrowing ones 

Is my dearest wish, alway." 

Then tenderly, little blossom of blue, 

I'll fold you away with care. 
You came, a messenger of love, 

And found me in dispair. 

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You brought the sunshine and summer shower, 
The bird song and hum of the bee, 

The noisy stream and the silent lake, 
And the balsam from the tree. 



And now all seems good, for all seems God, 

I, too, have touched the hem 
Of the seamless robe of his great love, 

For lo ! I am well again. 



A FRAGMENT 

I could not let thee go with Death 

It seems to me; 
Life never meant what now it means 

Since loving thee. 

I could not go alone with Death; 

But by thy side, 
Methinks I could lie down content, 

E'en as thy bride. 

To fill the measure of thy need 

Dare I aspire — 
Nor is there longing in my soul 

For mission higher. 

To fill the measure of thy need — 

Dost thou not know, 
The measure of my own deep need 

Would but o'erflow? 



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MY CHRISTMAS WISH 

A happy Christmas? Nay, far more shall be 
My wish for you. I know how happiness 
Flits in and out of our poor human lives, 
Even as humming birds flit in and out 
The upturned lily's cup, or April's sunshine 
Pierces through the clouds only to vanish. 
I own her magic touch, for she has been 
My guest, and she wrought many a miracle. 
I mind how she transformed the common things 
Of life, and how she flung a glory o'er 
The future, till my dreams of paradise 
Seemed all fulfilled. 

After the storm of battle 
Cometh peace. Since I have heard her voice, 
And felt the touch of her soft wings upon 
My troubled spirit, I have ceased to pray 
For happiness' return, but I await 
Her coming — grateful if she rarely come 
And briefly stay. 

And so my wish for you 
Shall be my high'st prayer, that peace, God's peace, 
May enter through the portals of your life, 
And there abide, your guest, forevermore. 



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TO A ROSEBUD 

I pinned thee, Rosebud, on his coat 
When thou wert fresh and fair, 

And I recall thou did'st exhale 
For us a fragrance rare. 

With reverent touch, to-night I fold 
Thy withered leaves with care 

About this lifeless heart of thine, 
And breathe a grateful prayer. 

O tell me, Rosebud, wert thou deaf 

To all we said that night; 
Or did'st thou feel those kisses warm 

That thrilled us with delight? 

Thy lingering breath is sweet to me 

Thy beauty is not fled, 
And while thou live'st in memory 

I will not call thee dead. 



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TREES 

How helpful to my life are forest trees ! 

Their beauty charms me, while their strength sustains 

My weakness, and to be a dav with them 

Is as a sweet communion-day with God. 

How, like a strong man, stands the sturdy oak, 

Mightier than all his fellows ; yet he seems 

To boast, not strength inherited, so m.uch 

As from fierce battling with the elements, 

Relying not on Providence alone. 

But on himself — remembering the past, 

And how from feebleness he grew to strength. 

Was ever king in purple and in gold 

So grand as they in autumn's coloring? 

A most inspiring lesson to my life 

Their beauty teacher. In it, I behold 

A type of what this human life should be 

When the end cometh. 

Faces, I have seen. 
That speak to me, e'en as these autumn leaves. 
Of a rich harvest safely garnered in. 
Would autumn leaves be just as richly dyed, 
Did only sunshine and warm summer showers 
Fall on them, and the dreary days come not? 
But e'en as glory of the king may fade. 
Or he be robbed of all his rich attire, 
So fade and pass away their glories all, 
While ever and anon the drear winds sigh 
A requiem of sadness. Yet, above 
The dead leaves rustling, do the days go on, 
And spring-time gladness will return again. 
O, in their hours of calm, do trees not dream 
Of the bright days to come of bud and bloom? 

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Thus do they speak to me, and seem to teach 
The wondrous mystery of life and death. 
The first spring dandelion's bloom is more 
To me than all the written word; it speaks 
Directly to the soul, and seem to be 
The voice of God. It is a thing of life, 
And what can better solve the mystery? 
It is a proof of promises fulfilled, 
And bids us trust, unfalteringly, when 
Again the dead leaves rustle 'neath our feet, 
And the cold snow-flakes cover all we love. 

O God, so many paths lead unto Thee, 

'Twere strange if any soul should miss the way! 



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